I don't know any other way to fix my issues. I have tried therapy quite a few times and I never find a therapist that I feel completely comfortable with. My meds also don't help the issues. I cared for my grandpa for 6 1/2 so my whole life revolved around him, work,and school. Once him and my grandma moved away I didn't know what to do. I am the type of person who needs to be needed. If something were to happen to me my fiance would just fine without me. A baby would need me 24/7. I lost myself completely in 6 1/2 years. My fiance almost died right in my front of me three years ago. Ever since that day I have felt the same guilt I felt with my grandpa if I leave my fiance alone at home. I feel that if I leave and something bad or fatal happens that it's my fault and I could of stopped it from happening if I wouldn't of left.