Well this time it wasn't my bipolar disorder it was pancreatitis which was pretty painful. My stomach felt like it was on fire every time I tried to eat something, severe pain and nausea.

So the treatment was first a fast, no food and no water for a day only IV fluids then a liquid diet for another day and heavy duty pain meds. I also had a ton of tests including a cat scan and if you've ever drank that crap they give you for a cat scan OMG YUCK.

The test was one real meal to see if I could eat it or not. They also had to wait till my digestive enzymes which were through the roof, were down enough to release me.

Even though they were nice to me I was totally miserable in the hospital. I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, couldn't smoke. I couldn't stand being cooped up in that room. Was afraid with getting no sleep I would go manic but it seems the Geodon and tegeretol worked because I am not manic.

The problem with all of this is, is that nobody could tell me why this happened to me. This is usually something that happens to heavy drinkers and I don't drink at all so I don't know what caused this or how to prevent it in the future. I am a scared this is going to keep happening to me and I think the only treatment is in the hospital repeating the process that I went through this weekend.

My stomach still isn't right. It feels strange and I am worried this aint over yet. I am afraid to eat anything. I am going to make an appointment with my dr hopefully today to go over some of this and hopefully she will know something as to why this happened to me. Plus I desperately need to see I dietitian because the diet for this is way different then the one for my diabetes and I don't know what I am supposed to eat anymore.