Give yourself some time and space to settle down. Sometimes having a break is a good idea. Can you see somethings between T1 and T3 though ? T1 isn't too fond of T3 - I wonder why ? But she can see the improvement.... ( a little grudge there perhaps ? ) When there's a problematic T in the mix of our experience sometimes we transfer things ( I do it with my T who's very good and the problematic T ) " You're just as bad ! " goes the trauma ( pulling the same crap as T1 - but it's different really ). I hope you stay with T3. There's been lots of input on this thread and that can feel a bit like an overload sometimes , so take care of yourself.