I can relate. I feel like my "friends" are around me only when it suits them, for instance, when we work close and they need company at breaks, when we meet accidentally somewhere, or they need something etc but I feel not one of these people actually cares about me at all. They just acknowledge me when it's convenient for them, but never call me to ask how I am, or ask me to go out. Maybe it is my fault, I tend to look very distant, as I am shy and introvert, and can look cold and even conceited. My looks and my psyche don't match. They take it personally. Or maybe I am just boring. Whatever it is, it's making me miserable, so I am also thinking to stop ever seeing all people who are just around when we accidentally meet. It's difficult because I may also be alone at the end. And I really have no strength to find new friends. I am so tired...