This is somethin i been workin on and i wanna talk about it here ok?

I been growin up. I usta be real little and now im not so real litte but im still a kid. Thats weird but its ok to me i thinnk. Sometimes its ok sometimes its not. Today its ok. Thats what i mean. Its ok now.

My system is diffrent groups. We always been diffrent groups as long as i can remember and i remember back when i was a real for real kid and that was a long long time ago. The group we are now is me and my two sisters and the one whos doin the most host things. Then we got another guy but hes a adult like the host one is. My sisters are soometimes teenagers and sometimes kids.

We got a name we gave to the group of us here now. We disaster squad clean up crew Once all of us got settled bein the new group doin life we all seen how we all was real good at gettin back on track. But me i didnt do lots at the start cuz i was to little to be helpful. Now im bein more helpful and i dont know how to keep bein helpful. I think i know what the hard work is that i gotta do but im scared to do that. I think i wanna practice bein more helpful first so when i get mad sad scared then i can use my logic brain to remind me that i do good things to.

I never had to be disaster squad clean up crew for myslf before. Thats one of the hardest ppart for me about growin up is bein acountable for myself. I never done that before cuz id fix stuff for other ones then theyd fix stuff for me when i messed up and got in troube. I never had to think about me cuz i was busy thinkin bout other stuff and how to do what i hadta do so not to get found out. It was real important back when i was a real for real kid to not get found out and make people think everything was a ok. I know howta pretend real good. Im not real good at sayin whats not a ok.

Thats me startin. Sayin sometimes everythings not ok and i dont know hhowta clean up the me disaster.