Idk know any other way to say this, but... your poor future baby.


I'm not insinuating that you'll be a terrible mother, no. Not at all.


But as mentioned above, needing to be needed, having a child to fix yourself.... That is very poor reasoning to bring a whole new life into this world.


And even if you're excellent at taking care of them, this underlying reason will pop up in your childs life, whether you want it to or not...Your child will ultimately pay for your choices.


I can already see you never letting them out of your sight (even as a teen) because of the fear you relayed regarding your fiance.


At this rate you are unknowingly planning to smother a child you don't even have yet.


Please try a different T or different type of therapy, because you are on a very misguided path right now.