Wanting a baby so very badly, and knowing that you can't have a baby(right now, in your case) is a very painful thing indeed. I think it's a good thing that you are posting about it and reaching out for help instead of giving into a want that you know would not be good for all involved.

It's difficult. Baby lust can be very painful, especially if you've had to terminate a pregnancy in the past and are desperate to replace that missing baby. This was my case, I'm not suggesting it's your situation.

I'm 46 and my odds of getting pregnant now are slim, but I still get a strong urge to have children. There are many reasons why having children was not right for us, but it doesn't stop it from being a painful choice, even if it was the right one.

I think you know it's not right to have a baby at this time, and I understand how much it hurts to have to wait.

I think it would help to start a thread about the pain of having to wait to have children or choosing not to have them at all. Just to connect with others who feel like you do can help you through this painful time. I for one would appreciate such a thread.