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Old Sep 12, 2016, 12:09 PM
Rayne Selene Rayne Selene is offline
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Location: United States
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I can't get off the couch. I have no motivation. I recently quit/was fired from a job. I'm trying to find a new one but the market here is really bad...there's almost nothing I'm qualified to do (I'm still a student...no experience in anything and everyone wants experience), and what I am won't pay enough to pay my bills. My bank account is overdrafted by about $200. I've been applying to jobs all day for three days straight and have heard nothing. Now I just...can't move. I need to clean. I need to exercise. I need to eat. But it's taking all my effort to type this. I have no one to help me. My boyfriend has never dealt with mental illness and idk how to explain this to him. So I act happy and fine when he's around. My family lives thousands of miles away and I have no friends here. I thought I could do this. But maybe I can't. I feel like I'm sinking in the mud and anything would be better than this. My limbs feel cold and heavy. What do I do? Every time I move, I think about the fact that I have no idea how I'm going to make it through the month and I freeze again. I'm putting this here because I don't know if this is anxiety...or depression...or some weird aspect of my Bipolar Disorder that I haven't dealt with before. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't move. Please help me. I keep moving from hysteria to this silent, frozen feeling. I can't get it together.
Hugs from:
*Laurie*