Just to let you know, I have had a suspicion of having autism for a few years, because I recognise multiple traits. Two years ago I have had an AQ test and scored about 32 or higher, my T wrote down ASD possible. I never asked about it till december last year. Got a new T and my mom was interviewed, afterwards I had this feeling important things were left out by my mom, it felt like she hadn't really known me that well. Had an interview myself, but wasn't able to prepare like I would have now (e.g. would have written down stuff about my past before the interview as I am not that easy with speaking).

About 8 months later we spoke about the subject again, because I thought about it a lot. Wrote down some papers and sent it to my T, to specify why it was still something I thought about. The next time I was waiting for a clear explanation why they would or wouldn't do something with what I wrote down, but they didn't see autism, because I have empathy (?) and it didn't appear in the interview with my mom (which I still feel may not have covered important information) She said this about two weeks ago. So now I try to stop thinking about it, because if a T says something, it should be true, right...

Yet a big part of me cannot let it go.