Hi y'all. I can relate to a lot of what all of you have said. So you are definitely not alone. Sometimes I too feel like these EDs are hopeless for me. I've had them for most of my life. I had bulimia for many years and stopped that and then now I have had binge eating disorder for a long time. But I keep going because I know there is hope in getting better. I did get better for some time and am not doing horrible right now. I just can't seem to take the weight off as fast as I would like. Maybe my weight loss will just be a very slow process that I should accept; I don't know. I haven't started to exercise yet and that would be real progress if I did. I am on a lot of meds for different disorders and they make me sluggish. I can't go without them, though as I have some symptoms that would come on and drive me up the wall. Guess I needed to get all that out.