I'm sorry that happened to you...I feel I can understand how PTSD can make someone feel shamed. Skeksi's observation that perhaps your body waited until you were safe to regain "consciousness" may be so - Isn't response fight/flight/or freeze? You did what you needed to get through. That is a strength in and of itself - honoring your instincts, and doing what you need to.

I feel I can understand the resentment PTSD generates - sometimes I feel like my mind and body are betraying me, too. The more primitive part of my brain that prompts the PTSD doesn't care if I'm on a bus, or at work, in the store - it just responds. Verbal can feel just as threatening - sure there are so many others here who will affirm that.

Take care