Thank you everybody for taking the time to reply/welcome me. I apologize for typos before, and any that may pop up. Im on my phone so they sneak up on me.

Yes, he is going to therapy. He recently started since he began feeling this way he said. I know i can't heal him; i came to terms with that when he left the first time. I knew that eventually he would spiral downward again. He refuses ongoing treatment including both therapy and medication. Although him seeking therapy this time is amazing. He hasnt gone in several years.

I just don't know if he's thinking straight or if he is in fact not because of all of the things he has going on. I've never experienced any of it for myself. Is this something that could be a case where he doesn't realize it's the depression, etc? I may sound dumb but im not sure how it works. I dont want to keep pushing him about it and the next 3 months are hell. I'm trying so hard to go about this logically and keep my emotions on the back burner. At the same time if we split i have to find a place for me and my kids. 3 months isn't a long time to plan.

Bill3: There are many things I love about him. He is the most loyal and honest person I know. He is a great role model and adores the kids. He makes me laugh. I'm the most comfortable when I'm with him and can openly tell him things i have never told another soul. I feel at peace when im with him. He's a great provider (not just talking finances please dont take it wrong) and protector. He's a rough type on the outside but is actually very sweet and caring with us. He makes me amd my kids happy.