I can be in so much emotional distress that I'm a hair trigger away from doing something stupid and still keep my mouth shut and help out the person crying in the corner. I can be having a great night with my fiance and manage to do something that upsets both of us. I can be in so much physical pain that I can barely stand it and I take an ibuprofen and call it good (even though it didn't help a damn bit). I can be told that I my cancer could've relapsed and still refuse to do a PET scan to see for sure. I can know I need to talk to a therapist about things going on with me and I never actually take the time to find a good one that works for me (instead, I "hit it and quit it"). I'm given medication and refuse to actually ever take it. On top of that, I get told I need surgery and then I find some excuse to put it on hold.
Why do I do this? Why do I refuse to take care of myself in any way?
Then my hypocritical *** tells everyone else to go take care of themselves because they need to. I'm the one who says "Talk to someone" or "Go get it checked out" etc.. I've taken all of my opportunities to be successful and thrown them all away along with both physical and mental health.
Why do I screw myself over all of the time?