Thanks for taking the time to put so much into your reply.

I am quite astounded by your insight and interpretations. I do feel as though I am emerging from something that has been smothering me for some decades even though there is a little fight in me to continually refuse it and keep myself down. Maybe the gravity of which you have clarified.

It makes a lot of sense when you relate this to your own life and experiences and I find a majority of existential similarity, though certain intonations I have to negate, but not without being equally valued. Over the last few days the culmination of certain realisations go in hand with your insights and I can say that much of what you have said resonates with me.

Thank you again for sharing your experience and knowledge and the in depth feedback you gave, I will pursue your recommendations.