I've seen with my own eyes how my parents love ruined everything the pain will always seep deep inside. Love so tortuous with no escape no way to escape the loneliness. I thought this has to be what love felt like. So I barricaded my heart taking in my mother's pain. I suffered the fate of suffering silently but never understanding the cause. Why I pushed everyone away before they could come close. Now I know the truth love can only cause pain...