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January · Sep 13, 2016, 04:50 AM

This is going to be a rant. I am so upset I couldn't sleep. My friend who does not have fibro or Chronic Fatigue, or a host of other things that I have, called me out for not keeping my house as clean as she thinks it should be, not eating right, not keeping as many appointments in a week as she things I should, or exercising.

My friend has a host of medical problems, but she is younger than me and powers through hers. I can't do it anymore. I'm overwhelmed and it's all I can do to keep my nose above water and not drown.

It's hard to eat right when you have no dentures. No, I still don't have them yet and when I went in for a fitting today, the man who makes them had broken the uppers. I don't know when they'll be ready now. In the meantime I'm stuck with soft foods which make you gain weight. I can't afford baby food and I'm not that hungry anymore.

She doesn't understand why I can only stand to do half the dishes at a time because of my intense back pain but can sit at the computer for a long time. Well, sitting at the computer doesn't hurt, darn it! If I can get my Dr. to sign off on it, I'll get a dish washer for my apartment from my landlord, but it's a long process and it's going to be months before that happens. My friend thinks dishwashers are extraneous.

In all honesty, my friend means well and I think the world of her, which made me keep my mouth shut, but I don't need criticized or dissected. I need understanding. I need help. I've had one thing after another hit me and my body is tired and hurting. I can barely stand up and sit down because of knee pain. I'm afraid I'm going to be using a cane soon. I don't want that.

Do you understand washing half the dishes at a time? Do you understand not running the sweeper because it's too heavy and it hurts you? Do you understand being so tired you can't keep four appointments in one week? You, my PC friends, are the only ones I know who can possibly understand and right now I'm feeling very alone.