That all makes a lot of sense. Certain medication I don't take because I've been on it and didn't like the side effects. I don't really want to go through getting that way again. The worst part is, right now, I agree with everything you said but I just...
I don't talk about what's wrong with me. I can write it almost any day of the week but the moment I have to actually sit down and talk with someone about it I just get silent. I don't speak to them, at all. I've had a therapist who I would ask a question here and there and they would talk to me. I guess that was always where I would decide to keep them or not. If I ever felt comfortable enough to talk, I would stick around a little longer and if not, well you can guess. At the end of the day I just feel like no one can help. Not doing the PET is probably both depression and anxiety, that's hard for me to explain, though.
I would say that I'll work to get a therapist but I don't want to lie to you. I might but there's a good chance that I won't. Thanks for replying, I really appreciate it.