I have been living with bipolar disorder for 9 years now and I must say it has been a journey. I don't always stay on my meds and I end up making very bad decisions. Right now I'm going through a crisis that I caused because when I was manic I did a lot of impulse shopping. I'm fighting with myself about whether I need to go into the hospital to get well again. I have three children to support and my decisions are costing us everything. I just wish I would stay on my meds and continue therapy so that I can make life better for us. I'm sorry if this is long. I just needed to vent my feelings because I feel so down right now.