Hi,
Well, hang in there. Please let me know if you listened to Susan Elliott. Here is another video I'd like you to watch because it can offer you some immediate guidance.
Alan Robarge - Grieving the End of a Relationship - Painful Attachment Trauma After Breakup
Please feel free to private message me if you'd like more resources or to talk about this stuff more in depth.
You are going to be okay. I know it seems impossible, and it seems like you're in so deep but YOU WILL feel better soon. Allow yourself to feel your feelings and get through the fire.
We are here for you.
Sincerely,
Lele