I can understand being a virgin at 24. I can imagine being in one's first real relationship in their early-20s. What tears me apart is that I don't even have that going for me. I've literally had not ONE person be interested in me, nor have I had ONE person reciprocate feelings when I approached them. Didn't get asked to any dances, never been on a date. Literally never had any experience with anyone actually caring about me.

Being a relationship virgin when you're in your late teens can be "cute" or "innocent", but when you start getting into college age people are more likely to just hold that against you on top of everything else. People aren't looking for some clueless girl that doesn't know what the hell she's doing, or doesn't even understands or has received love before.

I mean, for Pete's sake, I can't even find someone who's single. Literally every single person I know, with the exception of the one mentioned previously, has a boyfriend, girlfriend, and even a few have married at this point. Even if I was deserving of love, or lovable, there's nothing which I can work with. Let alone something that might actual be mutual attraction...

Plus like I said I'm just going to be an unfair burden on someone if I ever do end up in a relationship. It'd be a one-way street because I'm so emotionally screwed up that they'd probably just get annoyed at me not having any redeeming qualities to bring to the relationship, and get tired of me. I'm just damaged goods, and I doubt anyone will see me as worth the trouble or time.