I think I might have ADHD. I had my first appointment with a psychologist about two weeks ago. It didn't go well. I got nervous and just started saying things and I wasn't very honest because I was afraid of the judgement. I spent the entire next day researching and a lot of the symptoms associated with ADHD were like aha thats why I do that. I first decided that I needed help when I was sitting at an intersection and realized I had no idea how I got there. Ya see, I write books in my head; like all the time. I thought it was some weird thing I did and I didn't want anyone to know. After reading online I think it might be advanced daydreaming. I forget things all the time! Like big things. Like leaving the dryer on for two days cause I can't figure out how to make the timer work kinda things. I forget and mess things up so often my name has become a verb; like, I really booksnmyheaded that up.I know they don't mean any harm and think it's just funny, but sometimes it hurts. As I am writing this I am getting a bit emotional but I don't what to stop and take a break because I know I won't ever finish if I do. So please excuse any typos, misspellings, and ramblings. I don't have many friends and I have even less now. See, we moved from the states to Germany a year ago. I think that is what really made all of my problems, if you want to call them that, come to light. I no longer have all of my support system. It is hard to meet new people because the first couple of times we met people when we got here I would get nervous and then start saying things and later thought maybe I shouldn't have. Or it was really crowed and I just got like antsy or something. So now when we meet new people I try to just sit back and stay as quite as possible so I don't embarrass myself. I try to keep in touch with my family and friends back home but it is hard. I think about calling them and then because of the time difference I wait and then just forget or I text them and forget to hit send or find out later that I only texted them back in my head. So now they all think I just don't have time for them which isn't true. I don't work anymore which is a big one for me. I am a teacher and, looking back, I see that I needed that fast paced day. My kids kept me on track. I always just thought it was because I was tired, but looking back after they left for the day I would ramble around and do less important things like decorating the door even though grades were do and I'd just look at the stack of ungraded papers and think I'll do that in a bit. Often, in a bit never came so I would grade papers the day they are due as I teach that days lesson. The doctor said that I seem to have low self esteem. Maybe a little, but not really. My problem is more that I have a ton of really awesome ideas and no where to put them just now. I don't have my mom, and friends to keep me on task. I never realized it until now, I thought they were just being annoying, always stopping by and asking if I remembered to do this or that. I'm not a failure. I didn't finish high school. I mean I got my GED and later went to college and finished that with honors. So, I can do things, they are just hard. I feel like this is getting too long; so I guess what I want to ask is this: Does this sound like anything you have experienced? Do you think I am on the right track with ADHD? How do I go about talking to my doctor about what I think? Is it okay you ask to be tested for ADHD? I want him to take me seriously and not just say "oh everyone thinks that have that" Okay I am going to stop for now.