So it's been ages since I've not had any medication. Until my recent diagnosis with BPII I was uselessly on Adderall.. until they started me on Zoloft. And then I was hospitalized in a BH center and came out with the BPII diagnosis which led to Lamictal (continuing the Zoloft with intent to taper off). Well now they want me to start Abilify. It didn't help that I was hypomanic when I went in to see the pdoc. She was like... Do you think you are having racing thoughts right now? I was. :-)

Anyway... I was excited about the Lamictal thing because it seemed like it would be nice to just take ONE med. And now they want me to try Abilify before even trying the Lamictal out on it's own. I guess they want the Abilify to control the hypomania.. but I don't want that aspect gone. No.. I don't want any more mixed episodes which led to the hospital. But.. hypomania is the time that I'm actually productive as an artist and the times when I feel good. I suppose I'm just ranting here.