Why do you stop your meds? Because you feel better, don't like the side effects, don't like the way they make you feel? Whatever the reason tell your pdoc that they are not working to see if he can prescribe something better.
Whether or not you need a hospital visit is in the end your decision alone, but do talk to a pdoc or therapist about your feelings because once again you may only need a med change.
Above all remember what your decisions are costing you and your family if you think it out well it should be enough to stay on your meds get your therapist to help with this as well.

Your post is hardly long at all, don't worry about it.

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