I´ve seen my T for more than half a year now and although the sessions go well, I feel uplifted by them I don´t feel better. I have the PDD NOS diagnosis, I got that a year ago but had never myself suspected such a diagnosis and in the diagnosis papers they don´t specify my actual difficulties.

I have studied on university and also worked without problem, I didn´t need assistance. Now I also got depression and anxiety but I have though managed to study, to be at school, work with others in groups. I have a couple of friends I sometimes see but I often feel lonely.

My T sees me as insightful and we talk about deeper issues but although all of this I don´t feel better. I have tried antidepressants but they don´t help. I just keep feeling bad, lonely, tired, I don´t see how I can get a life worth living with a job, a relationship and so on. It´s not just because of depression I feel like this, several days I even don´t feel depressed.

I don´t want to be too open about this to my T, that I feel bad even after many months of therapy as my T works within public health care where everything is about economy and "choosing" patients to treat.

Anyone who has felt like this or have any advice?