I was fearful of just about everything. I was in a psychotic episode that lasted two years. I started meds my senior year of high school when I received a psychosis NOS dx. I used to think my food was poisoned and I had to cut myself to let the cyanide escape. I had very chaotic relationships. I had frequent hallucinations of insects, animals, fire, and random things moving when they really weren't. I had two particular hallucinations that were people from an alternate universe, they were called 9twoO and K-Fin. They were very mean to me and followed me everywhere. I would spend days underneath my bed at a time, no getting up to use the bathroom or eat; I would starve and piss myself. Then I would get manic and not sleep for days and run around town screaming about one thing or another. Things were very tumultuous to say the least.
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