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Originally Posted by leomama
I don't feel unrealistically threatened. I, like you, am complex, and actually I have complex PTSD. Since I don't have DID I can't advise you on that. Have you thought about cross posting to the DID forum? I don't see my tendency towards narcissism as a separate part of me. The internalized critical voices of my family, ex, and some friends are not me, but they are in me. That is what I want to expunge or silence. The way others have spoken to me has not been good. Now as an adult I can stay clear of those who hurt me.
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I've thought some more about this and I think we may have had different responses to trauma.
I believe I dissociated/disowned my narcissistic tendencies somewhat -- that's not entirely possible, how that worked I don't entirely know (there are some theories I could cite), but I tended not to have/allow them into my consciousness -- especially any "desire" to hurt someone (That's AWFUL. Not to be allowed! What a horrible person that is, etc. Not taking into account, sometimes . . .) Or maybe it's just regular old "repression". At any rate I had disowned those "parts"/motivations I mentioned.
And I also "owned" the internal critical voices, putting myself down before someone else could do it first.
Sounds like maybe you are and have been aware of your narcissistic tendencies and you and experience the internal critical voices as not-you. Which is probably "healthier" -- or less something -- or maybe just different than the way I was.
Does that sound like anything that makes sense to you?