I followed a band around the country from the age of 18 to 23, pretty much all of that time I was in a manic state. I was convinced that the FBI was after me. I used to change cabs and busses like I saw people doing on Spy movies. I had long periods of time they were probably more Hypo than manic. But I know that I had a year that was completely manic, I was hospitalized in San Francisco, Santa Cruz, Boulder, and home in Burlington. I lost a lot of friends, made a lot of bad choices, I am lucky that I did not end up with A life threatening disease. I self medicated with bad drugs, and I eventually ended up incarcerated. Being manic in jail is no fun, although if you get bad enough they send you out to the actual hospital. I got sober in Jail, but did not get diagnosed. I married after jail and I really think that she fell in love with hypo/manic me, we have had problems ever since I got diagnosed. Although I have had worse episodes in the last few years and I have tried to commit suicide several times. My life is like a strange book. Maybe someday I will write it all down. I am sure it would give some folks a laugh, and others a good cry.
I wish that my parents had been more observant of me in high school, i showed the signs, and the disease is all over the family. oh well.
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BP1
OCD
General Anxiety Disorder
Meds:
Clonazapam 1mg 2x daily
Lamictal 50mg
zyprexa 5mg
Prazosin 3mg for night terrors
Best of all I am off of the opiate replacements finally, no more methadone
Almost Famous:
William:
"Penny I need to get this interview and go home"
Penny Lane : "Poof! you are home."
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