I feel like if people on this board think I can do it, when you've seen the fully extent of my "crazy", then maybe I really could!

I definitely wouldn't want to do it until I felt very stable myself and I'm a ways away from that, but I'm randomly having a really good day today, and part of it has been thinking about a different life for myself where I could stop chasing after a career in the entertainment industry that's brought me nothing but pain and focus on something where I could feel like I'm doing some good for the world.