Oh no ... scrupulosity. I catch myself doing it too, when under stress. Did I do the right thing? Is this going to turn out well? Am I expecting too much? Am I being reasonable? It's like self-doubt magnified to full-blown existential dread.
I think ambiguous situations I want to turn out well activate this stuff. Desire plus doubt equals self-monitoring for anything potentially shaming. Like social anxiety, OCD and GAD put in a jar and shaken well.
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