I just thought I would update. She sent me an Email and asked if I would be willing to come in for a short session, if nothing else, to tie up loose ends prior to termination. I decided to do it. But was an absolute nervous wreck up until my 10:30 appointment this morning. It was just supposed to be a 20 minute session, but ended up being an hour. I sat there visibly shaking, crying, and downright raising my voice to her, while using dirty language because I was that angry. So for at least the first half of the session, it appeared this WAS a termination session. She questioned me about the situation, and I told her I started seeing her because T1 did something similar, and I was highly traumatized by that, and it still severely hurts a year and a half late. I told her that it seems no matter where I go, my option doesn't matter. I go to therapy to figure out what my needs and wants are,but told her it seems those don't matter anyway. I told her I was very upset because she made this change without even asking for my input. She went on about it being her professional opinion, and that she has had a lot of schooling and training to get to this conclusion. I told her I recognize she went through all of this, but that I am the expert on myself, no one else, no matter the training, can know how my head and heart really feels. I told her I know what I need, but it never seems to matter anyway. To make a long story short, she agreed to "take it back." She said when I ask for a table session, we'll get a table session. She did seem to apologize for not taking my opinion She asked what I wanted. I said I wanted things to stay the same. So she agreed.

I think she might even feel a little bad about having done this to begin with. I'm really glad I went today, and I hope I can just let this go and continue on with therapy as I know it with her.

So, I felt listened to today, and understood.

I appreciate all of the feedback and care here and just wanted to update. So I feel better about it. I "got my way," but that's not what I was looking for so much....I was looking to be understood and listened to, and I got that.