that seems to be my experience. i guess you'd technically call me the 'host' since i'm who is here all the time...though i don't really call myself that because i am who i am.

but i have wondered if that is normal with DID. most the time, i feel numb or mildly depressed or flat. sometimes, maybe for a few seconds or so, i can feel content/happy which is generally triggered by something positive. otherwise, more things are felt from the others in general whether they are triggered internally/externally or not. it has always confused me. i thought there was more to me...but i also really lack being able to 'like' things like hobby wise even. i wonder if it's related to the lack of feeling too.

i can feel anxiety, sadness, etc. at times though...but generally not much of anything unless/until something is triggered positive or negative.