im having premonition dreams again..
recurrent...
and i know its going to happen
it never fails to be like clockwork..
tick.. tock... only a couple more weeks..

i dont want to experience it anymore, why cant the danger just go away?
why are there bad people in the world..

dont think im going to be able to handle it this time... just hope it doesnt last long.. i know im going to absolutely lose it...

already losing it and its not even here yet