It is scary. I doubt there is anyone on these boards who wasn't scared at first. I was terrified. In fact I lied to avoid diagnosis for a while. But it is much, much better to know what is going on, to have medication and therapy for it if those things are needed and to find ways to feel better and live life. Honestly the living life part is still a work in progress for me as I've only been on the med that is really helping me about 7 months and we're still trying to work out the dosing (but I'm very hard to medicate, harder than most people) but even so it is so much better than it was.

Life can be good and normal and a lot less scary. Getting treatment is not easy but it pays off in the end.