Dear Humpty Dumpty,
Hope today is better than yesterday was!
Though I'm not depressed lately there are anxiety/panic attacks/emotional flooding/flashbacks to my attempt. I've been trying to identify the triggers and notice that guilt over what I did to my husband is definitely one of them. If I am open about my panic attacks, etc. he gets upset because he worries about me. But that makes me hide my symptoms which I think makes it worse.
So I can relate to your statement, "Then I think about how that will make my wife feel & that only makes me feel worse." I wonder if it's automatic guilt response that is making our condition worse?
Myst