Now, chin up!!! You must realize that it is not such a difficult task to survive in this world -- it can seen impossible at times but remember that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, expect perhaps getting your name off of a calling list.

Are you a young guy, in your 20s, or even early to mid 30s? or have you live half a live already and life has finally really gotten to you. If you're older, I can understand because it is easier to justify and know what the world can do to a person that will push them into the darkness.

But if you're a young one, you must't let the darkness get you. You should try with everything you have to go on. You may not know how much can happen and change in just one hour.

I too, at age 52, with much personal abuse, trauma, mental challenges and recent parent deaths and estrangeent from family members -- poor health suddenly, etc. and my marriage is my prison with a husband that has been in his own turmoil and putting it on me. This past year, and still now, I pray for death. I'm too chicken **** and have people in my life that I mean more to me than my constant misery. I ache inside and am lonely beyond belief. I fight and hope it will be over soon. With my luck I'll live to be 90 like my mother and then I will become a *****y old lady who has awesome white hair and bright red lipstick.

And I'll probably end up in a "home" hopefully, where I can bed the capable male fellow residents that will still be alive and and maintain my image of being awesome!! (I have a very wierd sense of humor but i'm trying to make you chuckle or stop and wonder what I'm saying, which will take you out of your head for a moment)

Music is one of my most important things to me. I listen to it practically non-stop. I have Google music and I have playlists I add to and create on a regular basis depending on how I feel or want to feel. Music is like medicine to me. I have my headphones in and music on everywhere I go, even around the block, so it is like a soundtrack is playing in my life and it make my world better in every way.

I try to do at least one, maybe two things everyday that scares me.

I can go on and on, but I make it rule to try and keep my pep talks to less than 10,000 words these day, so in conclusion Ii leave you with these words:

"There comes a time when the world gets quiet and the only thing left is your own heart. So you'd better learn the sound of it. Otherwise you'll never understand what it's saying.”
― Sarah Dessen, Just Listen

Stay strong....Courage!!