Thanks to all, your posts really warmed my hearts and encourage me to speak more... I really don't know how to start with... But to be simple,I'm facing 2 big obstacles now :

The first one is always my family problem. I was born at a home that I feel I lack the real love from my mum and dad. I know they actually love me. But they overprotect me too much and even I'm now at late twenties, I feel suffocating from thrir over control especially from my Mum. I deeply affected by my Mum and never manage to escape the shadow on me. My mum also get depression problem,serious than mine many times,that she always said she wanted to kill herself. Problem get worsed as some family issues in recent months getting worse