`Sadly` Its` 3 x times` for me.

1 when my dad died (I miss him so much)
2 When my younger brother died. (Never said goodbye too him as we fell out!)
3 Felt desperate and worthless. (Had rope around my neck, was counting 1-3 `BUT` a thought came in so strong saying, " I can`t be selfish and do this to my other brother.!!!!!!!!