I need help to figure this out. This OCD has been eating me for such along time and I've been trying to work around it instead of through it.

I play a lot of videogames. Lets say that in a videogame there is a character that specializes in fighting hand to hand combat or with a sword. I can't play that character, not because it's a difficult character, but because I can't relate to it. I don't like fighting, I don't have any fighting training and I've never been in a fight either. I'm not a violent person.

I can't watch Pokemon. You know why? Because I have low self-esteem, and Ash (the main character) is all about winning and beating the very best pokemon trainers. So I can't relate to Pokemon, hence I can't watch it.

Now I'm playing a Pokemon game, and the only Pokemons I want are the none-physical types. I can only have the Pokemon that do Psychic attacks, because I'm a thinking man, I think a lot and I see myself as of higher intellect and awareness than most other people. So it makes sense for me to like Pokemon that also do stuff with their mind instead of with their brawn.

I can't have any chubby or fat pokemons either, because I'm not fat. It actually came to a point where I decided to become fat and eat more because I wanted to be able to use fat pokemon, and become a fat pokemon trainer.

This thinking patten applies to every part of my life, wheter I'm choosing Pokemons in a game or I'm buying a new computer part for my computer, then that computer part has to be a certain color that I can relate to, not nessecerily the color I like and prefer, but the one I can relate to.

I know there's something wrong with me, because I see so many other people play videogames and they don't have these problems. They don't think about what color the Pokemon is, or if they can relate too it, it never crosses their mind. I want to be able to be like them.

How do I work pass this?