I think you know you love him when all you can think of is all you gifts you can make with all the ways you could tell him. Also knowing how much it hurts that you have to make a snow globe and in German writing telling him but then being vague enough to send it in the mail with no name. Oh how it hurts it would just be better if he never knew :'( I just think he'll have a happier life without me in it. All I want is his happiness *sobs*