I definitely understand that some ups and downs are expected as part of life. I just get suspicious when my mood shifts without an external factor.
A couple of days ago I was talking to a friend - 2 days ago I was really depressed, the culmination of a couple months of depression that had been triggered by grief and stress. Well, I complained to this friend that I seem to do ok for a year or two but then everything falls apart. And he framed it as an opportunity to build it back up even better than before. I think I took that to heart this morning, looked at things with a bit more optimism and decided to use this time to create a better life for myself.
I'm talking things like setting up a better routine, finding a better job, trying harder in therapy, exercising more regularly. Nothing like moving across the country or big drastic changes.
But I still stepped back and looked at that optimism with suspicion.
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Dx
Bipolar II
Rx
Depakote XR 500 mg AM & PM
Celexa 20 mg AM
Wellbutrin XR 450 mg AM
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