2x, both genuine.

First no one knows about, because I lived through it alone (Was extremely distraught and angry that I woke up, threw up a lot.)

2nd was thwarted by a random stranger. And i just couldn't bring myself to do that to this person and make them present in my situation.

So I guess one time, technically. since the other was thwarted.

i've had many more plans or thoughts than that, though.

It's always a mixed episode that does it for me.