Yeah I think I know that situation. I also have essentially no parents, very few friends. I think a lot of people feel alone, but like you said, I feel like I have known extreme isolation and lack of connection. That alone is enough to make a person crazy.

The therapy relationship is not comfortable for me either. I had grown to love my therapist like a father, and then one day reality was slapped in my face that this was not reciprocal and never would be. It brought me to my knees when I found out just how irrelevant I really was to his life, and realized I'd been living in a fantasy the entire time that we had a relationship at all. All along it was just in my head.

As horrible as that all sounds and it was, I think going through it has made me stronger. No, I will never be "normal," after two crazy nut bag parents, but who is. At least today I am harder, colder, older.

It's like there was this suffering and hurt little girl inside, and he just went in and finally strangled her to death, now the little girl is gone, the hurt is gone.