The Verbally Abusive Relationship by Patricia Evans saved my life. I believe that it should be required reading for everyone on the planet. Abusers rarely change.

This is physical abuse and VERBAL abuse. I hope you will get some help. Do NOT go to Malaysia or ANYhere with him. He could prevent you from coming back home. Call the domestic violence hotline for support. This is the number: 1-800-799-7233. Make sure you make the call when he isn't around.

I doubt you love him; we generally don't love someone who abuses us......you are afraid to be alone and that is understandable.

I waited for 31 years to get a divorce because of the fear of being alone....I had to learn how to do everything on my own; so scary, but I did it.

Children learn and act out what they see and hear and very often have a relationship or marry that abuser they grew up with. I am sure you don't want that......for the sake of your children, I hope you will get help. I can practically guarantee he will abuse you again. Unless abusers admit they have a problem, and go into intensive therapy, they never change.

His abuse has NOTHING to do with; he is acting out his anger at whatever his issues are. You cannot help him. Please don't be a statistic...women are murdered every day by abusers; your children must be your first concern.
They deserve a mentally healthy mom, and not being exposed to violence. Please don't be in a relationship with another man right now, that is not a good idea. You have a lot of work and healing to do.