I have been in a verbally abusive relationship, and my advice to you is run away! Call the hotline that nicoleflynn provided and get the help you need. You are worth so much more than this.

On another note, don't apologize for having an abortion. The stigma needs to end. You are a brave and strong young lady who did the best, most selfless thing by not bringing a baby into the world that you could not handle. We women have to be responsible for our reproductive systems for 30 years and we do not need to apologize if an accident happens.