I had a dream last night that my family was all eating dinner but they were eating people as well. They weren't acting weird about it, it just seemed normal to them to have a roasted person in the middle of the table among the pork, and other stuff. They were pressuring me to have some and obviously I didn't want it and they didn't understand why and eventually, annoyed, were like "fine if you don't want to eat you can leave." and at this point I remembering wanting to go to the chinese restaurant so I could just get some chicken or something. I was running away barefoot for a while when eventually I heard my family running after me shouting. But I wasn't scared now because I knew they weren't running after me because they were mad but because they felt bad.

Anyway I have been having trouble finding any dream analyses that involved watching someone else commit cannibalistic acts as most focus on whether the dreamer is either the cannibal or the victim. I'm trying to figure out what this could mean as I've been having a lot of anxiety recently since I've returned as a sophomore to college this year. Lately, it's been fading as the day goes on and I feel okay in the evening generally but I feel like I wake up in a panic in the morning and feel on the low-verge of tears most days. I've never ever been the type to get homesick in my life so I'm not sure if it's that or just feeling a lot of pressure from the amount of loans I've taken out and regretting that decision. There's a part of me that feels trapped by the decision and jealous of a friend who commutes at home to a state school and will have no debt at all. And I suppose I feel like I'm almost betraying myself by even flirting with this idea because I've always felt so much pressure on myself to "do great things" which could involve being at a top private school. Anyway, I don't know if any of this ties in but those have been my concerns as of late which could tie in.

Any insight would be appreciated!