Quite a few overdoses that have landed me in ER. A couple of very serious attempts that I was lucky to survive. Some of the overdoses were done on impulse while in a very distressed state. The more serious attempts were done as I had lost all hope for a life worth living, felt desperate, alone, despairing and could no longer stand the intense torment in my mind. It is the most awful place to be in. Mostly I was in a mixed state but I also had bad circumstances and PTSD to deal with.