Okay, I will ask for help with something. Zen, I HATE my birthday, always have. It was pain shoved in my face when I was a child. As an adult I feel guilty that I can't just enjoy it. As I read your post it occured to me what I can do. I can PLAY. get some clay and colores and play. Have my family play with me and make a poster for the day. Remind me, My b'day is Jan 23