I've been wondering if anyone else tried making themselves switch into hypo or manic episodes from depressive mode. I used to do that a lot when depressed, and when the episodes were mostly euphoric and high energy, but not so much since they became mixed or hellish sometimes. I am not on meds, as I turned them down until I meet my new pdoc, and do some thorough diagnosing first.

Right this moment I am descent, I've been flip flopping today between descent, and teetering on a panic attack.