I am on medication, but I have an appointment on Sept 30 (can't get in sooner...the pdoc is on vacation), so trying to make it through until then. I am on 200 mg Lamictal, 200 mg Seroquel, and 0.5 mg Klonopin. I don't feel it's doing enough to stabilize my moods and feel a med change is needed. I definitely have to be clear and assertive with my pdoc, especially since sometimes English being her second language could interfere with her understanding me. She usually isn't a fan of med changes unless I'm practically ready for hospitalization, but I'm approaching that point. I'm contemplating getting another pdoc if she does not make some changes, but that's another issue....

As far as my boyfriend goes, I would think he would be understanding about depression because he had an episode before where he pushed me away completely a few years back. He tries to be understanding, but sometimes he'll just tell me to "calm down" and does not fully hear me. This is his way of trying to comfort me, and he means well, but it does not help me. I do think I need more time alone, and he will have to understand that. I tend to worry too much about others all the time and what they think of me, so I push myself too hard.