thanks fuzzy and bb... i wonder, do you think this has helped or harmed you?... perhaps it is grey... i fear that the isolation has made me be my own blackboard, checking my own theories in a vaccum, but i still enjoy the discussions whenever possible if someone will take time with me, but few have done the imagining i have and often i spiral off alone, into isolation again... and speaking of isolation, would you say there are times you prefer it, even need it? for me it seems that way, but always i come back around, needing to connect... and not always finding the connection i need...just curious what your thoughts are... love...